It’s been a while since I updated my blog…..
The last couple of months has been difficult, now I truely understand where my parents were coming from when they were trying to raise me. As kids, all we wanted was to have lots of play time and nothing else on our little minds. But as parents, all we wanted is for our kids to grow up well, eat and live well, get the proper education needed but the fact is, it’s usually never the case.
When the kids were babies, we always complain how hard it is to lose sleep and take care of a crying baby or a waddling toddler. As they start to walk, we worry they fall and knock into things. Then comes the time, they have to attend pre-school. Then we worry about if they can adapt to school without us around. Then when they go into primary school, you worry again…..how is my kid going to cope in such a big school with so many kids around? The fact is, somehow, they are survivors and can somehow manage to surivie…..
Now, Rayner’s 9 and RayAnne’s 7. Rayner is growing up fast. So fast that I don’t seem to be able to catch up. Both mentally and physically. He has recently started lying, he can lie about anything under the sun, which lead me to think and worry that if I don’t do something about it, it will be too late. I want him to get back onto the right track and grow up to be a useless and rightous person but I hope I am doing the right thing for my child.
People often attribute it to no fatherly figure around but I doubt so plus I never quite agree that it is right for a child to not behave just because either of the parent is often not around. Perhaps I am not good enough a mother to begin with. I guess being a parent requires lots of training too, and not forgeting the patience needed.